Cloud Watching

i discovered something. on february 28, 2012, i had a dream about annatier. (or rather, i WAS annatier...) and i realized i recently gave annatier some attributes from the dream that i had completely forgotten about. i didn't remember i had this dream, so the attribute came out of my subconscious! here's the entry i wrote in my dream journal on 2-28-12:

i hated last night's dream. there are a few parts of it, and there are details i don't remember, but here it goes. so, i had a dream that i was actually annatier, but i wasn't like the annatier i created. of course, i had the black hair and white skin, but i didn't really speak, and i must've been way more of a threat than the character was. it seemed more of an actualy representation of my depression. the weirdest part was, since i was annatier, my actual self was standing right in front of me. not only that, but whoever else was there could see me too. my normal self was explaining to this unknown person, "she follows me around everywhere. it's like she needs to be near me all the time." i was actually holding her hand and silently letting her guide me. i felt sadness, and i could sense the annoyance coming from normal [reitanna]. she let go of my hand, but i held onto her shirt. she managed to shake me off and ran away. i felt panic like i've never felt in a dream, and chased after her with unbelievablt speed. i cornered her a couple of times, but somehow she managed to slip away and hide. i still wasn't actually speaking, but i was starting to panic more, crying and hyperventalating. i searched everywhere for [reitanna], and the people who were apparently [reitanna's] friends were just watching me. at some point i finally lost it, and the hallway i was in started to fall apart. i fell to the floor, and after a moment, i felt hands help me stand. i had somehow become normal [reitanna], and i was pale, out of breath, and covered in cold sweat. i looked around with the feeling of relief, as if i had gotten rid of annatier once and for all.

obviously the actual character can't be seen by others except on video recordings or photos, but her panic pretty much summed up how she feels. her newest attribute is her yellow eye turns red. it's so interesting how our subconscious works.

you can't tell because their hair is in the way, but they're holding hands.