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Devil's Angel by Reitanna-Seishin Devil's Angel by Reitanna-Seishin
i had this really good idea for a story whilst trying to get to sleep. i've developed insomnia, so i now have to take sleeping pills, which aren't working very well. they KEEP me asleep, but it still takes me forever to finally drift off. before i started taking it, i couldn't sleep until 5 am. i don't wanna take melatonin because it gives me more nightmares than i already have. i have nightmares nearly every other night, and i don't want to increase that.

anyway, i don't wanna tell you the story line, cause i dunno when i'll even start it, especially with PWF going on. the blonde one's name is nathanael (changed the spelling) and the dark haired one's name is damian. some people may already be able to guess the jist (gist?) of it though.

i'm PLANNING on finally starting the next page of PWF. the last few days i've felt sick, then i was cuddling with my rats, watching movies, and writing and recording music. and my head hurts. actually, the morning after i fell asleep at 5 am, i woke up with such a bad headache that, when i sat up, my nose started bleeding like mad.

and i go back to work sunday. i'm terrified of that manager who caused my meltdown so that i had to go on disability leave and into therapy. i AM excited to see all my regular customers though. they're gonna be glad to see their "rainbow girl" as they call me. but my therapist told my boss i need to ease back into working. it's for the best i believe. i just hope i can regain a suitable level of energy before i go. i jest need to learn how to relax. but it's almost impossible. maybe that's why i have headaches.

oh, and to anyone who took my dr. who stamp as an insult, please think about the point i'm trying to make. I DO NOT HATE PEOPLE WHO LIKE THE SHOW! a very great number of my best friends like it, and i like things that many of my friends don't. ever watched shows like family guy, american dad, robot chicken, futurama, southpark, the simpsons, etc? if we got butt hurt every time they made fun of something we don't like, their ratings would drop significantly. people need to learn how to chill out and respect opinions. this is why people are afraid to be individual, afraid to speak out for themselves, and afraid to support those who are "different." while we also shouldn't insult eachother, that is more of a reason to get upset, but over something like this... i love you guys, and most of you have NOT made a big deal out of it, and in fact have relayed to me their respect, which is a step to keeping our society from losing touch with itself. we're so close. "And thus we seek to correct not the symptom but the disease itself. We have sought to shrug off individuality, replacing it with conformity. Replacing it... with sameness... with unity, allowing each man, woman, and child in this great society to lead identical lives." for those of you in school, next time a teacher asks a question, look around and count how many people raise their hands. chances are, only a few. it's not that the others don't know the answer, it's that they're afraid someone will laugh at them for speaking out.

victims of bullies know this, as i was a victim too. the strength it takes to walk with our head down while enduring jeers and insults... well, those who victimize have no idea the amount of strength that takes. they're too drowned in their "pride," when in reality it's not pride. it's weakness. those who make fun of and torture others are miserable on the inside and refuse to deal with their problems themselves. they have caused a few of us to commit suicide and cause much grief among our friends and family. we secretly see ourselves doing horrible things to our predators, but those of us with common sense know better not to act upon our fantasies.

so, for those of you who are victims, know you are strong, stronger than anyone may think. don't give up being the person YOU are. don't dress a certain way just to be popular, and know that, if you're teased for it, they're just a slave to our dying society.

for those of you who are bullies, go ahead and throw anything you can at me. i've heard it all before. death threats, violence, and a combination of the two. crying out to teachers for help when kids throw books at you, or pens and pencils. getting detention because a fellow student tried to choke you, and you had to bite him to get away. to fear sharp objects near your throat for life because your brother's friend threatened you with a sickle. (sp?) i've heard every single thing you could possibly say. and it makes you weak. i've endured things you couldn't even imagine, and so have those who have endured your torment. ask victims to share their horror stories, and they'll tell you things that'd shock you so bad, you'll be surprised it wasn't a criminal that did it to them. but bullying should be a crime.

when is it going to far? recently, a boy about 12 i think, was beaten to death by others who teased him, who felt that that boy shouldn't live because he's "different." we may be different, but we all bleed red. and think about it; do YOU really want us to be the same?

sorry, i went on a rant. i am angry. anyway, i really love those of you who support me and respect me, even though i've expressed certain things about ZADR and yaoi i don't agree with. it's you guys who can fuel the world with your strength. don't give up, and don't stoop to their level. hold up a mirror. the front of the mirror reflects all that shit back at those who've thrown it, and the back of the mirror is a sheild to keep any more shit away. don't give up, don't give up on life, cause even though you feel like it sometimes, there ARE people who love you, and there ARE people who would be sorry to see you go. suicide is selfish. this is why i need to keep "annatier" locked away.

i've given up on my insurance. i'm sick of beuracracy (sp??) and am just paying for my meds out of pocket. why can't the government make these things easier?

anyway, i'm gonna go chill for a bit. i'm all worked up now. remember... :iconrespectplz:
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capitalofawesome Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
not to be rude and triple comment on this, but i look at Damion in this pic and i think he looks a bit like a dog...i dont know why..again, NOT TO BE RUDE!! if you think im being rude, Rei, i will take the comment down. i just wanted to point it out
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
nah, I don't think you're being rude. if he was a dog, he'd probably be a pitbull :P Nathaniel would be a golden retriever. or maybe he's a cat... or a bunny XD
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capitalofawesome Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
XD
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capitalofawesome Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Their eyes are HUGE! XD
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LichKing0zma Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*reading description*
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Well said, Reitanna, well said.
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capitalofawesome Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
MAKE THEM INTO PONIES!!!!
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
???
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i'm confused, what did that wiki have to do with my story?
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mick1234567890 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013
SEE MAKING OUT MAKE
THANGS HAPPYER
:D HAHA
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InvaderXanna Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
i love your picture and what you've written. and i understand how you fell (felt) cause ive felt the same. If you ever need someone to talk to ill be here :)
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SadiandLeather Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I think Damian should be Donavon meaning dark one :3
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i have a specific reason for calling him damian
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LichKing0zma Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I can see that "Damian" is similar to "Demon"... though I could be wrong here...
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yeah I think I looked up like popular occult character names and damian popped up. and then I found out that was the name of the kid in "omen," and I was like "irony!!"
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LichKing0zma Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Is it okay if I do a fanart type thing for this?
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
OF COURSE!
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LichKing0zma Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
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SadiandLeather Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
oh okay i was just thinking no meaning to offend you or anything i um...im sorry...
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
no no! no offense taken, sorry if i came off that way XD
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SadiandLeather Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Its alright im just glad you're not mad :)
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:3
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mick1234567890 Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2013
you need to take it eazy you need to get better friends
will always be near so get well soon, but this devil and angle
would be a cool story if you keep tinkering with it
{SMILE OK}
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Rose-Laxzi Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*Hugs*
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InvaderBloodnut Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Student
thats a new style :D
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
since i've been drawing so much IZ style drawings, i'm finding it difficult to go back to anime
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InvaderBloodnut Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2013  Student
It looks great!!!! :D
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SyIzumakai Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I love Damian's look! Super awesome!! He definitely looks like the bad boy that girls don't realize (or do) they want. I like Nathanael's too though, especially the eyes, but I seriously, I can't wait until you start this. But I love PWF so just whatever you wanna do!~

I hope for the best as you transition back into the work force. I'm wishing you the best and hope you enjoy it. Oh! And um, I know you don't know me that well or anything but if you like to talk or whatever, I can always lean an ear! (or eye and mind, however it's "correct" ) Best of luck!
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks so much :3 you, like many, have given me so much support. i am so grateful (greatful?) how the hell do you spell that?
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SyIzumakai Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Grateful is how my phone spelt it. Then again you can't always trust autocorrect... >.>
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i know right? i try to spell don't and i get foot. well, at least that's when i used to use t9
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SyIzumakai Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The problem with my phone, is that it learns your typing habits so trying to type "Mwhaha" the first time, corrects it to "mega gaga" (Yes this happened before haha)but if I correct, then when I try typing in something like "marshmallow", and I misspell it, it corrects it to "Mwhaha" again. It makes for some... interesting conversations.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i use voice to text, so one time i said "last words" and it came out "just for kids"
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LichKing0zma Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:lmao: PewDiePie had that happen with Evie.
He said "Can I slap you?" into the microphone, and came out "Can I f*ck you?" instead.
Evie answered with "yes."
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i remember that, it was so funny
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SyIzumakai Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That's... kinda awesome and dark if you over think it.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
well cause i was telling sempai that when i'm on my death bed, i'm gonna make sure my last words are something totally ridiculous, like "don't bother putting clams in the oven, i'm teaching the couch how to tap dance"
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DiDi-dias Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
I like you art but I faved this mainly for the honest and well written description c:
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
my goodness! thanks! i bet you're one of the only ones who read it. i didn't even intend to write it, it just came pouring out.
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DiDi-dias Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Oh your welcome, I love reading the things you write cause' I know there're your real thoughts and feelings.:) I mean, the best writings out there are the ones that come gushing out into words!:XD: You're true to yourself and that's one of the many things I like about you! I'm sure your fans can all agree :lol:
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i hold honesty and integrity above all else... well, except kindness of course. but those can go hand in hand.
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DiDi-dias Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Well, no ones perfect and with all you've went through, what you deal with now, I respect you a lot Rei because I see you always trying to better yourself. Your experiences have made you the strong woman you are today! I've never been through anything like that so I can't relate. But my family know what it feels like, so I was taught to always treat people with respect and kindness.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks, i do feel so much stronger than i did so long ago
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thomasbaron06 Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
your characters look awesome! =),
just be careful with the sleep meds though,
and good luck to you going back to work on sunday! =)
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HisFavoriteDarkAngel Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
…poor 12 year old…..TT~TT Im 13 now, and can still relate to him. Being beaten and bullied is no joke. Yes, bullies should stop, but when you think about, some times bullies have more reason for their actions than meets the eye. For all we know, the bully is suffering from family problems, or mental injuries. Thi s hate has to stop….and it starts with us. RESPECT! >^<
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yea, they need to learn to deal with their problems civilly. i had a horrible childhood, but i'd never resort to making fun of someone. look at some people who didn't take it so well; H. H. Holmes for instance. he was america's first serial killer. he was bullied severely and forced to look at skeletons. he grew up to build a huge building that had secret torture chambers in it. he had a fascination with human anatomy
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HisFavoriteDarkAngel Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
WOW, poor twisted soul...well...it happens..
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yea. it really is sad considering a majority of serial killers are geniuses and are actually deemed sane
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DoubleRetro Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
Nice description,and picture. Oh,lord,I've abandoned yaoi so much lately,yuri sucked me in.
I dont really watch TV,I NEVER EVER watched Dr.Who,American Dad,Family Guy,Robot chicken,futurama,and I dont like the simpsons.But south park rocks.
Im a victim that became a teaser,then an outcast,now Im trying to help victims.

btw,I think the word is burocracy?
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