You know it's funny, not too long ago I had decided to make my own character and am in the process of making a series to help me cope with my personal battles with PTSD and the sick nightmares I am constantly plagued with. It is my way to make comedy out of horror. I hope she never wins. You're an inspiration to so many people.
Post traumatic stress disorder. After a series of unfortunate events, it left me afraid of... basically everything and I was unable to leave my house for a year. I am also cannot recall almost all of two years of my life. I have manic terrors and nightmares, similar to those who go through war-like trauma. I'm too afraid to sleep and have sadly even tried to kill myself and others I love out of irrational terror or a nightmare, though I haven't been that bad in a long time. I am always afraid at some level, but I am currently getting help and am on the road to recovery so I'm getting a lot better slowly but surely. I'm hoping by this year or next year I'll even be able to work again! ^_^ Oh... er... sorry for the wall of text. ><
Oh my goodness yes! My whole family thinks I'm faking it! EVERYONE from my hometown turned their backs against me! I had to leave. I ended up homeless in a city an hour away. Not too long ago I missed my aunt's funeral because I was too afraid to leave my car... it's just... everything I do they they are all disgusted with me and think I'm messing with them. And all anyone cares about is: "so what are you doing with your life?" "why don't you get a job?" Like I WANT to do this. And it's just... the amount of closed mindedness in people is just staggering. It really is hard. It took a lot of moving and work to learn that not all people are like that. Making true, understanding and accepting friends has helped me a ton.
it's like, do they think we CHOSE to be this way? do they think it's fun for us? no. it's fuckin scary. my friends and my roomate understand that i can't control when i'm unstable, but my family just thought i was acting up. hence why i tell people i have no family.
Omg there are so many times I wish I could mine. There are only a select few people I know who understand when I'm unstable. One of them is my 8 year old sister who I pretty much raised due to situations. My love for her and her twin brother are what keep me returning to that place and it sucks. If you don't mind me asking, when did you find out you were manic depressive?