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Emo. We've heard this term for years. I don't exactly remember when it actually started, but I didn't personally hear of it until my sophomore year. All we had was punk and gothic, but now gothic and emo are completely confused with each other. And now I'm ashamed whenever people accuse ME of being emo because they don't know the difference. Not even Southpark knows the difference.

The problem is, emo is associated with "emotion," but a depressed emotion at that. When people think of emo, they think swoopy haircut colored black, black clothing with occasional stripes, plaid, checkers, etc., hate for the sunlight, hating EVERYTHING, and writing depressing poems... oh, and cutting yourself! This is the problem...

There are people who do all these things that are not emo. I knew a very popular girl in 8th grade, Courtnie (yes, with an i), and she confided in me that she cut herself too, showing me her marks. Mind you, this was your stereotypical preppy ditz that was pretty much better than everybody else, but she was also the only popular kid who's ever genuinely been nice to me. As stuck up as she could be, I never saw her actually be mean to anyone except, you know, ex boyfriends. In lamen's terms, perfectly "normal" girl had cut herself because of sadness she hides behind her pretty, perfectly complected face.

I used to be gothic. It was when Erin started getting worse than ever, and abuse combined with manic depression, horomones, and bullies broke me. Of course, my fashion reflected that. Hell, I didn't even know what people thought gothic was. Now, of course, I don't follow labels. I wear what I want, whether it's a black frilly skirt with striped stockings or nice jeans with a pink t-shirt. I shop where I want as long as there's something I think is cute. And I'm gonna be honest, Hot Topic has disappointed me lately.

And now to the cutting. I cut myself. I've done it ever since I was thirteen, and that was BEFORE I even considered going goth. Of course, I haven't cut myself since the picture with the blue blood because I made a promise, so I've had to restrain myself... Reitanna NEVER breaks a promise. But I've got scars on both wrists, my thighs, even my hip. I've used things that range from safety pins to my own nails, keys to scissors, pointed tweezers to nail clippers, and box cutters to my own teeth. Why do I do this? Pfft, even I don't understand why. I can't say it's because of the depression, cause I've cut myself during manic episodes too, that's why they're JUST as dangerous as the depressed episodes. I guess I could say that sometimes it just feels good, and other times I'm punishing myself for what I did wrong, cause I tend to think everything's my fault. The scars remind me of how useless I am. Sometimes I honestly just want to see the blood... it's just hard to explain.

Ask an emo kid why they cut. Not sure what they might respond with, but it MIGHT sound mellow dramatic. It's almost as if this whole depression thing is a fashion right along with the clothes. Someone could have a perfectly happy life and just suddenly start faking depression. I'm not saying ALL "emos" do this, but there are some that make the stereotypes true, that's why they're stereotypes. Ever heard the saying, "down the road, not across the street?" The theory is, if you cut vertically down your wrist, you're an actual cutter, but if you do it horizontally across, you're a poser. I didn't hear this phrase for awhile after I started cutting, but I thought it was funny, seeing as how I always did it vertically. Unless of course I decided to do shapes and designs.

*Sigh* Depression, cutting, stereotypes... all very touchy and controversial subjects. But the point is, just because someone lookes "emo," doesn't mean they're actually posers. Yes, some are, but with all people, you should never judge people by their appearence or fashion, but get to know them. If it turns out they've got a psychological disorder and they cut, they still could be the sweetest people you ever meet. You could make your best friends this way. I know I did, but in reverse.

So, emo. Is it just a fashion? Are they all posers? Does it genuinely mean you've got a lot of terror going on in your head? The answer is... sometimes. Like in all races, in all species, it depends on the individual. If you choose to frown upon someone, fine and dandy for you, but you don't need to vocalize it to the person. You never know what's going on in their head, and you never know who might not be on this earth the next day.

We can't all love each other, but we CAN keep peace. Is hate really so different than love? This sorta works in reverse too. the goths and emos hark on the "preps." Think about it. Think before you act.
a thing i've thought about for a long time
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artimproves2 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013   Writer
I actually had these moments too I dont cut myself because actually I hadnt boke down yet but I do wear rubber bands on my wrist you probally know why. I I just its hard too explain I guess I have these mood swings that I love pain then after that im confused and terrefide. Even when I get in that mood my hands start to tremble even when I talk about it. You see my step brother called me goth and I snapped. I said "No im not I dont know whats wrong with me but thats an insult I cant help it". Im still confused even now....
trolly1199 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
One time a group of complete asshats triped me and I was wearing capris and I cut one the backs of my legs cause then my "parents" cant find them. So my pants role up enough so you can see them a little bit. So these kids start laughing and calling me emo. Now this is were I differ from most cutters. I cut to keep from hurting others. It keeps me reminded not to hit without a good reason (such as self defense of sparing). I was pissed they would assume that. I legit mubbled under my breath "your lucky I just did some of these last night or your asses would be in the grass." I was pissed cause at the time I was in areopostel (spelling?). So yeah. Stoopid huuumans.
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
capris? fuck, what is WRONG with them? i love capris, especially when you wear them with knee high socks, i think they're cute. wow, if they did that to me, they'd be sorry
trolly1199 Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i know right! i was thinking you better be happy i not only had cut myself but had taken my nice candy. i was pissed
NotSoAmazngGrace Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
My response was always "To make the outside match the inside". My therapist said he'd never heard it summed up better... Personally I think he was just being nice to the crazy girl that liked to hide razor blades weird places.
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
make the outside match the inside? but that'd be like me wearing black when i'm sad
NotSoAmazngGrace Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I also wore all black and all black makeup. my glasses and jewelry were the only colour... or well, when i was seeing that therapist, just my gold-framed glasses, as they don't like jewelry in looney bins. and that inside would be the scars on my soul, not just the black fugue of depression. (ages late response, because life sucks when you have a shitty job and then you sleep all the time.)
sparkreigns Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Hobbyist
I used to cut myself horizontally on my hips and never thought of myself as a poser. Interesting saying. Never actually considered myself emo either. It was just a way to escape for a few moments from highly stressful high school experience.
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i think it refers to just the wrist. i have an X on my hip, so i don't think hips necessarily count.
Nandoskennedy Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2013
I'm emo six years and I've met and heard of many people who cut their wrists and have suicidal thoughts, but most of them are not emo ...
This stereotype exists because of some misguided teenagers who think being emo is living in depression and be complaining of life.
Being emo is, above all, be a poet who expresses himself through visual, music and your own lifestyle. The emo is someone who seeks not only wildly FEEL ANYTHING AND CRY SO, but someone looking UNDERSTAND what feels and EXPRESS everything for the person he loves ... or save all this feeling for the person he love.
Being emo is always hope algupem to love ... without necessarily expect to be loved.
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