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This knife. I've been staring at it for nearly an hour as I sit here on my bed. The bruise on my left eye throbs, and there's a stinging on my leg from the large scrape running down it, my jeans soaked with blood and dirty water. My shirt is ripped, blood staining the tear from the slash on my collar bone... and I was fearful of when my mother found out that I "lost" my bookbag.

When really, it was taken from me.

Torture. Endless torture. It's the same thing every day from the same group of kids. Why do they attack me? What did I do wrong? I get good grades, I've never stolen, I've never abused drugs... I'm a good kid...

This knife. Just... one little puncture... and it'd all end... my suffering, my torment, my misery... and then they'd be happy. They'd be happy that I was finally gone... out of their lives... because I must've just been a terrible burden on them...

I raise the knife slowly to my jugular... the blade presses on the skin, and I'm ready to cut open my own throat... bleed out my filthy blood...

Wait...

I lower the knife.

I didn't do anything wrong... I never even spoke to them the first time we crossed paths. They just... came up to me and started pushing me around several years ago and never stopped. I tried to get the help from my parents and teachers, but all they did was give the kids a strict talking to. What does that do? NOTHING! I never did anything to them! I could've even been their friend!

This knife. It's not meant to kill me. It's not meant to take my life...

It's meant to take theirs.
if i could, i would track down every single person who's ever bullied me, including cyber bullies, and massacre them. slaughter them like the pigs they are. some may not agree with my belief in revenge, but that doesn't matter to me.
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:iconcyndergirl211:
Cyndergirl211 Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2015
how I feel every single day of my life
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lostlightxxx Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013  Student Writer
haha, i love this! i loveeeee the ending! good job
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:iconvarletlegion:
varletlegion Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Yup. I've got some people down on a little list of my own (not literally). True scum people are.
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:iconcyndergirl211:
Cyndergirl211 Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2015
WHY I HATE 75% OF HUMANITY
HUMANS SUCK
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:iconvarletlegion:
varletlegion Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2015  Student General Artist
Pretty much.
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:iconcyndergirl211:
Cyndergirl211 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2015
XD
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:iconblazethecat4ever:
Blazethecat4ever Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
I was constantly bullied but it ignore them and evently the will give and find someone else
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:iconcyndergirl211:
Cyndergirl211 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2015
*Cough*Ignoringthemdoesn'twork,we'vealltrieditdude*Cough*
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:iconvarletlegion:
varletlegion Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2013  Student General Artist
It's hard to ignore getting punched in the face.
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:iconraqythetimelord:
Raqythetimelord Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
If I could I wouldn't kill them, you have to be the better person but you are right, you did nothing wrong.
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:iconreitanna-seishin:
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you're right, i'd disfigure them so they'd have to live the rest of their lives getting bullied
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:iconraqythetimelord:
Raqythetimelord Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes, and that makes you no better, why even give them the pleasure of crying when crying is for the hopeless (and in some cases hopeful) and somewhere in there you will always have hope.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
hmm. i cry a lot because i have manic depression. so i'm hopeless because i was born with my brain wired all fucked up? um, i want my bullies to suffer. it doesn't make me a bully, it makes me a seeker of revenge. end of story. please stop arguing with me.
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:iconraqythetimelord:
Raqythetimelord Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's fine, and I'm sorry.
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Xx--MsBrightside--xX Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Wow..
This is a great prose.
You should never try to get the teachers to talk to them.
It never works.
Sometimes..
But basically never.
I would do the same things..
But if I did..
I wouldn't be any better than them..
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i believe that, in the case of bullying, getting revenge is not being like them at all. see, if you were to go after someone who did nothing to you, then you'd be just as bad as the bully. but if you go after someone who's tortured you for a very long time and made you want to die, then that doesn't make you like them. see, you have a reason to hurt them. you have a right to. problem is, the law doesn't exactly agree.
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Xx--MsBrightside--xX Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Ah..
Yes..
The law is complete bs.
They'll get a clean get away, playing the victim..
Then, you'll end up in prison, when you're actually the victim in all of this crap.
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:iconreitanna-seishin:
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
bullying needs to be an official crime. all these anti-bullying campaigns do nothing! how long until you realize there needs to be something done, america? seriously
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Xx--MsBrightside--xX Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Exactly.
Those campains are full of crap.
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:iconreitanna-seishin:
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*nod* i wish there was really something WE could do
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:iconxx--msbrightside--xx:
Xx--MsBrightside--xX Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Hell Yeah.
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xLilSugaBabyx Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013  Student Filmographer
This explains exactly how I feel most of the time, I try to act happy all of the time and all I get is abuse for it from "Certain" people. I wish that I could get the courage to end my own life sometimes but then I think to myself

why should I die?

Why should Its be me who suffers?

Because its them, it's their blood that should be flowing from their bodies, their weak eyes should be looking at me in terror and pain for forgiveness, just like I looked at them once. If its possible can I join you for the hunt of the people who deserve it?
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Asapientmachine Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013
I've said this before and I'll say it again, those who bully others are puny little weaklings who like victims who don't fight back or are too afraid to stick up for themselves out of fear of punishment or reprisal. No one should ever have the right to abuse or demean another person in order to rectify their own sense of self worth and/or for their amusement. Neither should victims idly stand by as their sense of purpose and self-esteem is eroded by such parasites. Learn to stand up for yourself and for others.
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:iconstarflight707:
Starflight707 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013
My I join you in your massacre?
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:iconreitanna-seishin:
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
of course
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:iconstarflight707:
Starflight707 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013
Huzzah!
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RobotAlien56 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
this is so depressing... but i like it...
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InvaderZira59079 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is an amazing piece. And yes I do agree the knife is not ever for yourself, it's almost always meant to take theirs. If I could show this and then show my bullies what they did to me, I would make them suffer, disfigure them in some way so they would get bullied so they know how it feels! But some times making them mad is more fun :evillaugh:
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:iconreitanna-seishin:
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you should watch the movie "the final." i think you'd like it
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InvaderZira59079 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hm, I think I will.
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:iconlizzamil:
Lizzamil Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Student General Artist
The punishment should fit the crime...
At least, that's what I believe.
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HollowedSin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I understand my dear friend it's good that you let these thoughts out good writing also :D
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hatsunemikufan108 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you have NO idy times i wanted to wrap my hands around a bullies neck.... i pinned a bully up against a wall in second grade!! in kindergaden, i wa sin a "against the wall recess time out" i was under a window see, Fernando came up with his little "tough group" and knocked on it, ran, and laughed at me. i got up, dispite being in time out and tracked their little butts down. i was too much of a good kid to hit them.
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:iconmythicaldraw101:
mythicaldraw101 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
One time sombody beat me up, I knocked him on the ground and almost choked him to death...
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:iconreitanna-seishin:
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i was never strong enough to retaliate. i was scared
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:iconmythicaldraw101:
mythicaldraw101 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:/ .-. I have anger issues.
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:iconreitanna-seishin:
Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i have depression issues. my brain is chemically different than some other peoples
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mythicaldraw101 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yeah, I have major self esteem issues, and depression... but, then it makes me angry and violent. But hey, just know that everyone has a reason to be, and that them making fun of you just shows that they have nothing good to do, and that they are being jerks because you're better than them.. I realized that when I found my bullies diary, and she was writing about how her and her friends were jelous because of how 'nice I was' ...
I mean, even after that I'm still depressed and thing terribly of myself, but I get over the bullies.

But express yourself in writing, it helps, it really does and you are an excellent writer!
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i wish i could read minds so i could get in there head and try to discover their problems
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mythicaldraw101 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah, to be honest I talk to myself, as if I'm two different people, like my alter ego... I insult myself. it sometimes makes me feel better .-. I'm an odd child.. when I was younger I would put fake blood on my toys and make them kill eachother.. I would grotesquely draw animals by morphing two animals together... People made fun of me because I was a freak <_> ... I still am, but I enjoy being a freak..
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
are you aware of yourself when you talk to this "other person?"

i would draw pictures of my bullies tortured and massacred, even as a young child. i talk to myself as anyone else would, but when my meds wear off, my mind talks to me as if i can't control it. it's not a different voice, it is LITERALLY my thoughts
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HanaYean Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
i want to kill my bullies too :l i didnt do anything and they just come right at me -_- . every year and everyday they try to find things to blame me on. sometimes i wish i have death note tbh haha
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
me too
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Sesshomarusama3 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013
I felt the same way at one point...this really speaks to me...thanks for writing this...it's really good.
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Ghosty95 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013
The knife is a tool meant to save lives, not to end them. If a life is ended with the knife, it MUST be for the purpose of saving another. If it's not, then it loses its purpose, and becomes a piece of metal wielded by a killer.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
the knife will save the lives of many who will die due to these people who want to torment them. did you know many bullies actually try and sometimes succeed to rape their female victims? the physically harm them when they've done nothing wrong. they're criminals, and criminals must pay the price
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Ghosty95 Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013
True, but some learn from the sins they've committed, and become better people then most.
But yes, they're are those who cannot be redeemed, no matter what is done.
Against them, the purpose of the knife shows.

... Are you, by chance, a fan of Death Note?
Just curious.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
XD i am!

in my experience, if you try to be nice countless times to your bully and still get the same shit, these are the people who won't learn
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BlackMoon705 Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
as a cutter, this was actually inspiring. i like this(:
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cskadoz Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013   General Artist
i prefer beating the crap out of them.
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