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SOUTHGATE, Mich. -  
An eighth-grade student at Davidson Middle School in Southgate committed suicide in the building Thursday morning.

Superintendent William Grusecki said another student found the boy in bathroom. He had died from a gunshot wound.

Grusecki said the school was put on lock down while emergency crews responded.

Students were put in the gym and auditorium and parents were called to come pick up their students at about 9 a.m. The school also arranged for transportation for students to get home.

"I feel so horrible for the family of the child. I can't even imagine," said parent Sherri Zacharski

Grusecki said out of respect for the family, the boy's name wouldn't be released. But he said the boy was known as a good student, somewhat popular and had never gone to school officials with any problems he was experiencing.

School was canceled for the day Thursday and Friday. Counselors are being provided for the community, some coming from surrounding districts.

"We're just going to do our best to help our kids out and our staff," Grusecki said.

He said all of the teachers and staff met together after the students had gone home.

"It got pretty emotional with the adults. They need a lot of support right now," he said. "We could see it in their faces. It was difficult for all of us."

When asked about how a gun got into the school, Grusecki said there are no metal detectors in the building. He said school officials will review and look into what they can do in the future.

Director of Public Safety Thomas Coombs said investigators are still looking into who owned the gun. He couldn't answer whether any charges would be filed.

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in another article, it said the boy left a note, but i can't seem to find it. i don't think they've released it to the public. they said he was rather popular, but i don't think that'd stop bullies. i can't say for sure if it WAS bullying, but that's uaually the case. whether this was or wasn't, it's exactly what i've been saying for years now.

for those of you who think it's FUN to pick on other kids for ANY reason, YOU are the murderer. kids kill themselves because they feel unloved and weak, but they're WAY stronger than you fuckers are! they have to deal with YOUR shit because YOU don't know how to solve your problems!! STOP IT! does it make you feel good when a kid commits suicide? in my opinion, suicide is worse than homicide because feeling suicidal is the most terrible feeling one could feel! i've been there! i'm STILL there on occasions unfortunately! you feel worthless, that everyone just wants you gone! and for what? being a good student? wearing glasses? liking a certain band? wearing a certain style of clothing? how about... BEING THEMSELVES? we all bleed red, you heartless, insignificant people! what drives you? what makes you do it? and what if that kid, instead of killing themselves, becomes a murderer? homicide, again, is pretty much not as serious as suicide, but it is STILL VERY serious! if your victim becomes a killer, who's at the top of their list? YOU!! and they're smarter than you think! your victims are INTELLIGENT! remember that! just because YOU have problems, doesn't mean you can't make innocent people feel like shit! if you're a bully, you need to think about your actions and get your life together, cause someday, that victim's either gonna kill themselves, kill you, or become YOUR BOSS. frankly, that'd show you. you working for the kid you tortured in school. then YOU'D be the one who feels like a victim, huh? well, i say, if you bully people, you deserve the hate and the torture you put them through. so maybe take a moment to reflect on the damage you've done, and realize you made a horrible mistake.

now, i'd like to think that my watchers who are reading this are not bullies. this journal isn't addressing you guys specifically, but bullies in general, whether they're here on deviant art or not. if you're a victim, you know how it feels. i can't tell you how many reitannites have reached out to me for help. for privacy reasons, i will not reveal any names, but there's a LOT. they tell me they feel like no one loves them, and that no one would be sad to see them go. they hurt themselves because of the emotional and sometimes physical pain! but it's not true, they DO have people who love them! but even if you have 2 people out of 50 that hurt you, , and that remaining 48 tell you those 2 are wrong, the torture eats at you, especially if you already have minds that are chemically wired differently than others. manic depression, borderline personality disorder, clinic depression, schizophrenia, multiple personality disorder, and (believe it or not) even autism, which is pretty different from the previously named disorders... suicidal thoughts. almost all the time. feeling of worthlessness, betrayal, hate, hopelessness, depression... would you wish these feelings on anyone? are you really that hateful? victims, you know what i'm talking about. you know how it feels. but, as hard as it is, if we stand up for ourselves (verbally, not physically), then we'd make a difference. fighting is not the answer, but we must show the imiciles who torture us that we are stronger than them, cause we are. we HAVE TO TAKE IT! NOT THEM! and most of us already have trouble at home! who wants to be afraid to go to school AND go home? i was when i was young. almost all my life, i was afraid. but where could i go?

to any of you who are vicitms, listen to me, and BELIEVE me. i am no better than all of you. and you're no better than anyone else. we aren't more powerful than eachother, but we are strong. so if i'm still alive, if i managed to finally find a happy life, why can't you? you need to believe that if others can do it, so can you. YOU'RE NOT WEAK. you're strong as hell! everyday you fight your demons while our predators run from theirs. LOVE yourself and know that there are many people sad to see you go. FIGHT emotionally. it's extremely difficult, i know. but look at our world. it's going to shit. we don't want our children growing up here.

if you're someone who neither bullies or gets bullied, if you see someone getting pushed around, PLEASE help them. if someone stands up for us, we gain the confidence, and we get it in our minds, FINALLY, that people care. and for bullies out there, maybe if you just STOP and see the real person your torturing, you may find that you have a lot in common... and you could make a new friend. isn't having friends a much more fullfilling feeling than having enemies? i think so.

it takes just as much energy to love as it does to hate. but which one makes you feel better? we can change our world. just take a deep breath and find what you really want.

and i lend my strength to all who goes through this. no matter how long the storm lasts, there's always a rainbow waiting for you.

NEVER GIVE UP.

sorry if this was extremely harsh. i know none of you guys would hurt someone like this. but i want to read out to you and let you know that YOU ARE LOVED. people want you to live. and the harder you work at life, the more happy you will be once you finally see your rainbow. please never forget what i have said today. if you wish, pass this on to others you know need strength... or to those who need to learn not to hate.
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DiDi-dias Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
My sister became really close friends with a girl who used to bully her constantly in middle school. You are absolutely right about bullies and how their just people trying escape their problems. That bully opened up to my sister and it turned out they could relate to each other really well.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i'm so glad. that bully became a very strong person, and i bet she's so much happier now
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InvaderBloodnut Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Student
Yah, I know the feeling of wanting to commit suicide. And I know how it feels to be the one kid so different from the rest. I went to a racist middle school where I was one of 6 white kids, everyone else was Latino and all the white kids thought I was weird and I wasn't Latino so I was alone for the whole year I was there. They kept looking at me like I'm dirt or something. It was awful.
Bullying is a real problem. But can it ever be stopped? It doesn't end in high school, I mean my uncles always chatting about how businesses bully other, weaker businesses and even adults bully fellow co-workers.
Maybe there's a bigger picture that needs to be looked at, beyond kids. Then the solution can be found.
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Rose-Laxzi Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Bullying shouldn't ever have been accepted as a 'normal way of life in a teenager's world'. Many adults have forgotten how it was to be bullied, or had never been bullied. Simply the fact that they say to 'just ignore' is enough to show that they're ignorant to the damage that could have been done already and expect you to just buck up and do classwork so that some {teachers} can be paid.

I've been bullied, though not anywhere near as bad as some people. My name alone was usually what drew in the bullies, which is a very sad thing to tease/bully people over. Just because someone is named with an unusual name doesn't give you the right to make them feel belittled for their name their parents had given them. How effed up do you have to be to do that, as well as bullying people for other 'reasons'?

Indeed don't give up, don't give in to the idea that no one would care if you're gone. There's people who cares.
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KuramaLoverBunny Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Highschool was the worst time of my life. Full of immature self-centered pricks who bully anyone who's different to make them feel better. My only solace is knowing the vapid, brainless cheerleaders with perfect bodies and flawless skin for the most part already have two kids and a deadbeat boyfriend in prison. I'M actually trying to DO something with my life.
I feel so, so sorry for the kids who have to put up with that crap. All I can say is, highschool is a very small part of your life and in the long run it doesn't matter. The dumbass bullies who think they're hot shit are probably going to end up pumping gas the rest of their pathetic lives. Stay strong, and find someone to lean on - I had two very good friends in ONE class - they were my rock.
Rolling Girl! Don't give up!!
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Novanplz Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013
Grr....
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BlindButler Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013
Dear Kara,

You, Kara, who have shared your feelings about this cold affair, are the type of person I think about when I want hope for this world. You know the pain that most have gone through, you made it, you're alive but some were not as strong. Thank you for your words of wisdom of this and thank you for lifting my heart. You are strong and talented beyond belief.

I think hopefully for this world and, though my eyes are dry while reading your post, I weep inside for the loss of a life at the hands of something so heartless. Some of us have taken the brandishing of words and lived but not all. Soul crushing depression or pent up anger draws them to guns or blades or ropes or even just stepping into traffic. It is not the persons' fault, the powerful and deadly emotions were put there by cruel people who don't even deserve to be acknowledged.

I think hopefully for this world and, though my eyes are dry while reading your post, I weep inside for the lost of a life at the hands of something so heartless. Bullying is no laughing matter and it's heartbreaking to find that someone finds this funny.

If you are a bully and you are reading these words, and you're laughing, you've just proven to yourself that you are as pathetic as the dirt under our feet and even less. If you have problems and you take it out on someone else, picture yourself stabbing and slowly ending their lives in the most horrible way. Do you really want to live with the guilt, the fact that you have taken another life willingly and heartlessly?

For those reading this who have dealt with the pain of words and echoing in your mind, you are wonderful and awesome. If you take your own life, everyone will miss you. I will miss you even if I don't know your name. There are many of us that mourn for those who take their own lives. If you think you are not strong enough or brave enough to make it through, you can and rejoice that you are alive. Life is a wonderful gift and the world is beautiful, don't leave it behind. . .

Thank you for taking the time to read this, I know my rant is a tad bit long but thank you for your time. Please remember, no matter what any one else says, your life is too precious and magnificent to be thrown away. If you throw it away, you affect every one in the world not just those around you. You are capable of wonderful and beautiful things, please don't throw your life away. So many others besides yourself will regret it and mourn.

Sincerely Blind Butler, who still holds small hope for this mad world
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you sweetheart, that means a lot to me :)
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maevemaelstrom Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
In my opinion, the worst thing about bullies is that many are either unaware or deny the fact that they are bullies, even when the bloody proof is right in front of their faces. And then, adults don't ever think an injury was obtained from another kid (Especially if said kid was smaller) because children are, apparently, "the beacons of innocence".

Yeah, children who are never taught morals beyond "evil people should be punished" are innocent.
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I-Lov-ZaDr-and-Anime Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I was bullied and called a bitch and a whore. They were my friends... They betrayed me. And one of them was my crush at the time... I was ignored by them and my parents and all I had was dA. I eventually couldn't stand it and stapped myself with a pushpin on my wrist. Not too deep and not on my vein. Just in a safer spot... and let it all out. That's why I had too leave that cruel group of bastards and now I have real friends. I look back and thought...Why did I ever trust them to tell them what had happened.

I'm happy and not as depressed. My parents are loving, they just were going through a hard time in October (When all of it happened.)

The bullies damaged my confidence I can never get back and my trust for people. Now I can't look people in the eye when I am talking to them because I amemotionally scarred. It may not sound like the worst, but It was the worst to me.. I hope you understand. I wanted to share this to tell others they are not alone and to stand up for others,and tell them only u can stop bullying if you stand up for others :heart:
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InvaderRosIrken Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know exactly what you are saying. I've had my share of bullying and depression. I know it's the most horrible feeling in the world. I found people who love me and are there for me though. I learned that the bullies are wrong about me and they really aren't happy with themselves so they try to bring down the ones they feel are better off than them. I've gotten stronger through my struggles, and yeah I have episodes still, but I can pull myself through them now and go to the ones who love me when I feel I can't. I try to use my expirences to help others who are going through the same thing. So maybe something good will come out of all the shit that happened. And I know how it feels to have suicide hit close to home. One of my friends committed suicide last year. No one expected it either.
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Asapientmachine Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013
The schools have it wrong when it comes to the topic of bullying and its' prevention. Often times, students are required to report such incidences to a person who has some sort of authority, that could be a teacher, principal, aide, or even bus driver. When nothing is ever done about such occurrences, when those in charge turn a blind eye to malignant activity, then are they not too accountable for whatever materializes? Some instances involve those responsible for insuring the health and safety of the students placed into their care who participate in the harassment~ believe me, I know as I was one of those students who were not only taunted by my pupils, but by the "adults" as well.

What about when verbal abuse escalated into physical torment and assault? I was taught that if someone attempts to cause you physical harm you have the right to defend yourself. This rule is also contained with-in the Bill of Rights called the 2nd Amendment. Apparently, the majority of public schools in the U.S have either forgotten or negate this right by their own volition. This leads many students to be persecuted for merely defending themselves from an aggressor or -more common than not as bullies are pussies and like to hunt in packs- aggressors. So, what does happen when justice never comes to fruition or when the right to defend yourself is revoked by the implementation of an arbitrary rule penned by some elected or beaurocratic official who knows little to nothing about the social and political demographic of todays' schools?

I knew of this one person who's sister was being constantly harassed by this one bully several years her age. He recalled that she would complain to the teachers and they would do nothing. One day this person witnessed the bully assault his sister on the tetherball court by ripping one of her ear rings out. Though, he was not much bigger than his sister he rushed in on the bully, smashed the back of his head against the tetherball post, shoved him up the post wrapped the rope around his neck and dropped him. That was the last time that bully ever messed with his sister or anyone else for that matter.
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Phantwigurl Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Amen sister. I couldn't agree more. You know, the main reason I was bullied in elementary school was because I didn't bully people that my "friends" bullied, so they turned on me.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
it's sad. to be a good person is... frowned upon....
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Phantwigurl Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah. :( I think the bullying was what caused my depression, and it definitely worsened my anxiety. Ah well. I'm over it now. And things could've definitely been worse.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yea, bullying can and will increase depression and such. do they understand? of course not. the bastards.
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Phantwigurl Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah. Hopefully more people will stand up.
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defyingthegravity Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know right? This is a serious problem, and these people who think they can do what they want, take out anger on other people, are freaking idiots. THEY are the problem. They have NO RIGHT to do that to other people, even if their the person's parent(s). THEY are the reason people commit suicide over the world EVERY DAY. THEY are killing off the human race, one by one. If someone bullies someone just because that person is not PRETTY or might be OVERWEIGHT, or just for the HECK OF IT, then THEY are murderers. And, you know what? THEY are the HIDEOUS ones. On the INSIDE. And if someone bullies someone to the point of that persons SUICIDE, then that bully DESERVES TWICE AS MUCH PAIN as the person that CAUSED PAIN. THEY DESERVE to go to HELL.
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defyingthegravity Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
that they cause pain. Not that caused pain. ^.^' typo
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animaniac07 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student Digital Artist
God i'm on the verge of tears.

i've been where you've been when i comes to feeling suicidal and it still comes and goes. i don't like to talk to people about it because i feel like they won't understand and i just feel bad whenever i admit that to myself. it really does suck. thank god i'm watching a comedy or else i'd probably be crying right now.

bullying is such a stupid thing. and plus, it's not always bullying that can drive a person to suicide, but the just that feeling of not being wanted. I've been there and I still end up being in that situation, but it's just one of life's challenges
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DoubleRetro Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013
Its alright,you werent harsh.Your rant made me remember about those bastards who throwed sand and rocks at me in kindergarden and elementary,such bad days.Gladly,that stopped in fifth grade,where they would just leave me alone and some of them became friends.I remember being so depressed,I tried to kill myself with C-Vitamine pills when I was around 8.I hate hate,I want to BURN it...
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AyaneHatake Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Being a victim sucks, i know that.

I got bullied in school since i was 7 or 8 and at home i got abused. mostly when i tryed to get my parents not to kill each other, when they were drunk. Or when I said to them how bad i felt and that they should act like parents/adults and not me. Saying my oppinion, was not good. Not one bit. i can't remember what i said to my father once, but it got him so mad, that he almost strangled me to death. (and that twice, i really can't remeber why he did that or what else happened before and after that. i just can rember that he did it.)

and since iam 10 i have thoughts about killing myself .. or others(just the persons who bullied me and my parents)... but i would never kill other people, i don't want to go in jail because of them. they aren't worth those trouble.

I also know how it is to hurt yourself or try to kill yourself. the last time i felt the urge to give in was in january, because of my parents who visited me, i had a huge break down. if i hadn't had people to talk to, iam not sure if i would still be around. i hate it that my parents have still so much affect on me.

i hope all bullys suffer in hell or where ever they will get after they die or at least get punished while they are alive. i don't get those people. the world is shitty enough and they make everything worse.

In the mental hospital where i was last year, someone (who is now like an aunt/mother for me) gave me a book. it's called "irre" in german. in english it would be calles "crazy" or something like that, the book is about people like us, who have been bullied or have depression or other psychoses. the author writes, that those people should be in mental hospitals or should make a therapy. because these so called "normal people" are the problem. i'm pretty sure that everyone, who got bullied or abused or something like that and had to suffer from it, knows that.


how many people have to kill themselfs, before getting bullied counts as a criminal act?? or that people stop saying that it is the fault of the victim...
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savarnalover Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student
I know everyone loves me even tho 8 kids hate me. and reitanna . ..


WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK I DO AT SCHOOL ? I GO AND STOP PEOPLE FROM BULLYING KIDS. i stoped few from hurting little 8 yr olds. this happened last week


little girl : OW ! I DONT HAVE ANY MONEY !

bully : ( she is pretty chubby could loose soem weight if you ask me :3) LIAR ! *PULLS HER PIGTAIL*

me : HEY STOP IT !


bully : shadup she has my money for hard ice !

me : * pushes her * SHES ONLY 8 ! YOU COULD LOOSE STOP WEIGHT CHUBBY ! GO ONT RACK OR SOMETHING * help little crying girl*

bully : u call me chubby ? says the fat bitch


me : * slaps her * im skinny as hell . go loose weight ugly fat cow !

8 yr old: YA! COW !

bully : IM TELLING MY MOM !

then i threw a hard ice at her .




but guys dont bully if they do sucide . thats a sin. they dont go to heavon for that (I DONNO I ASKED PEOPLE THEY SAID YOU DONT ) if you bully THATS A BIGGER SIN! your no better then a cow or dog. and no one is better then you . your not better then anyone. so dont let it bother you or get toy your head :)
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stinkybuttface Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013
i don't really get what you are saying but....

you are being just as bad as the bully calling her a fat bitch, slapping her and throwing ice at her....... there are less violent ways of going about this..
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savarnalover Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student
dude . you realize she ACTUALLY HURT the 8 year old ? when i got there the little girl was hurt and bruised. plus i didnt slap her i pushed her . and i didnt throw the ice at her . i threw it NEAR her like at her feet showing her how much i care that she wanted hard ice and her mom forgot it. she was a fat bitch anyway. she needs to loose weight .
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stinkybuttface Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013
alright. in your story you said you slapped her and threw ice at her. if you didnt, ok.

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savarnalover Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student
:/ i saved the 8 yr old you gotta be kiddin me . that other girl can go run track. see if she understands the meaning of "fat"
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savarnalover Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student
Due to my manic depression im a danegr to others . . . my brother has autisom and later 3 months at middle school soem idiot threw a flip-flop at ym bro and callhim ASSHOLE im like BITCH when i heard later he bullied my brothr secretly when i got out of moms car to give brother his lunch he picked on him ( btw i didnt take ym pills this was before ANYONE not i knew of my manic depression )

bully; what a little girl gonna do about it ?

me : THIS * punchs him and kicks him in the shin then in the gut and pushes him over * BITCH !!!!!

bully ; OW ! stop it ! you brat !

me : oh no you didnt * punchs him in the face over and over and then mom pulls me off him and i throw my shoe at him * HOW DOES THAT FEEL BITOCH ? ( i put the o on purpose.)

:L thts why if i dont take ym meds and your mean t oym family your gonna have to go to the docter to get stiches like he did.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you're a danger to others? i'm only a danger (physical) to myself.
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savarnalover Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student
Well im MORE of a danger to myself . what i mean is if you attack someone i love or know im a very danger . i broke a kids bone once.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i you sure you're bipolar? sounds like borderline personality disorder to me
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savarnalover Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student
i guess . . im not rlly sure anymore . . .
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
did a psychiatrist diagnose you? as far as i know, hurting others isn't a common symptom for BD
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savarnalover Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student
i dont know . i talked to my friend katelyn's mom. she is a cosnaler ( fuck you spelling ) katelyn asked her mom . thats all i know . i started taking the meds without my mom knowing it controals me for a while . but when it wears off and i forget to take it again ( i forget time and stuff ) anything mean can make me mad or sad . depends on what you said. i dont rlly like talking about this stuff . it scares me. i nearly hurt a kid bad .
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yea, doesn't sound like BD. i know talking about it is hard, but this is what bipolar feels like: you could be extremely happy, and the worst part is going over the top happy. it is actually dangerous. we act like children, can't keep our attention focused on one thing at a time, and actually are quite annoying. laughter is unfittingly loud, and you're so "optimistic," no one else's feelings matter. but a single thing can happen and you drop in a second. thoughts of feeling worthless, guilty for things that aren't your fault, feeling everyone wants you dead. you beasically shut down, can't move from wherever you are, staring into the distance. the further down you go, the worse it is. you become unresponsive, then you start getting childish again, and then, whoever is near you needs to hold you down because you've broken. you could sob for hours and hours, even after someone comforts you. EVERYTHING is your fault, and you just want to punish yourself. your friends and family don't deserve you... my room mate has had to force knives out of my hand, hold me down, and force my meds down my throat. i am not allowed to live alone. if i have an attack, i need to be watched until my meds kick in. when they do, i'm just another normal human being. THAT'S manic deppression. violence with others is not part of it, nor is anger. it's complete utter sadness.
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InvaderGenny Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
that is really sad! >:(
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Coravader-nightmare Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I used to be bullied when i was in my grade 2 year... All bunch of girl bullied me... I was afraid to go to school every day because i was afraid to be bullied again... I always thinking to go suicide or go back to japan but i know my parents woudn't aloud me so i just try to be strong but i cant... I always cry in school and in my house for the miserable thing they do to me... They also used me and abused me... And its hurt to me... But... After that grade 2 year... I was very happy but when i was in the next year of being grader... I was still bullied... But now girls and boys... My old friends in every last year grade that i go through becoming an bully... Then i felt... Im worthless and unloved... My family always make fun of me because of im smileless and acting like a weirdo and my nose...i was crying very hard every night...so... I feel like what the boy feel...my life was hell...now for they so to me... I got bipolar disease and i freakin have no medication to it because my family wont believe that i have bipolar so im just getting suicidal thoughts every night...
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you need to be careful. i'm bipolar too (which is the same as manic depressive disorder). somehow you need to tell your family what you are feeling and that you are desperate because you want to kill yourself, but you also DON'T want to kill yourself. bipolar is VERY serious. if not your family, maybe you have an older friend to help you? or find out how to call a psychiatrist yourself
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Coravader-nightmare Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
But im still young... Im just 14 and im older than my friends... And even i say to my family for what im feeling now... Believe it or not... They would just think that im just joking because everyday... Im depressed and gloomy... And when i say to my family too that i tried to kill my self... They will punish me to death and in my cousins... They dont care... :(
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
don't give up. as you get even older, they'll start to see it. and if they don't, that's their problem. you'll get help, i know you will. just try to remind yourself: "people don't actually want me dead."
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Coravader-nightmare Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah... I guess your right...I can get help... Its their crudding problem if they dont see it... maybe there just blind that im like this because of them... Especially my classmate and my mother... My grand ma is nice but unbelieving what i said... I wish they could see that im suffering...
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
what i've learned in my life so far: family is nothing but shit. friends are your real family. blood may be thicker than water, but water sure as hell tastes better.
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Coravader-nightmare Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Its sure right... Family is just an ass... Friends is your true family... Maybe i have to move on and be more stronger! Thank you reitanna! So much! Im always be an reitannites! Forever! Thank you for your help! A big help!
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yes! you are strong and can overcome anything! the power resides in your heart, never ever forget that <3
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Adrainea9876 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student General Artist
I was bullied by a dance teacher for ten years before I finally quit last year (I'm fourteen so that's over half my life) she made me feel horrible about myself and the younger girls who had less experience got better parts just because they're thinner than I am. I couldn't look in the mirror at all without crying. I am only just now able to and see someone worthwhile, someone who will grow-up and DO something good with their life. Not bully young children just because they aren't as thin and pretty as others. But now a girl at my church is being mean, but not only to me so it's not as bad and all the rest of us can support each other. I know this isn't as bad as some have it but it's still pretty hard on me. Just giving my opinion.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
getting bullied by a teacher is even worse. who do you go to for help? no one's gonna believe a teacher would bully a student. it's sad. you'd think people would just grow up
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Adrainea9876 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student General Artist
My mom and dad. We tried to work through it and I got transferred to another class and I only saw her at rehearsals where she made me cry in front of everybody but I didn't tell my parents how bad it really was until just before I quit. I was hoping it would get better until I started having panic attacks every time I was in the same room as her. And yeah I would think she would have grown up by now
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
that is just sad. that bitch must have major problems. one of my managaers bullies me, but it got really bad, so i had to be on disability leave and go into therapy
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Adrainea9876 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Student General Artist
It is. And to me it seems like she does have problems. I'm so sorry they really should know better not to bully people so bad that they actually have to leave. Thanks for reading my comments and responding, it means a lot to me.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you're welcome <3
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