Exactly what I've been talking about...

SOUTHGATE, Mich. -  
An eighth-grade student at Davidson Middle School in Southgate committed suicide in the building Thursday morning.

Superintendent William Grusecki said another student found the boy in bathroom. He had died from a gunshot wound.

Grusecki said the school was put on lock down while emergency crews responded.

Students were put in the gym and auditorium and parents were called to come pick up their students at about 9 a.m. The school also arranged for transportation for students to get home.

"I feel so horrible for the family of the child. I can't even imagine," said parent Sherri Zacharski

Grusecki said out of respect for the family, the boy's name wouldn't be released. But he said the boy was known as a good student, somewhat popular and had never gone to school officials with any problems he was experiencing.

School was canceled for the day Thursday and Friday. Counselors are being provided for the community, some coming from surrounding districts.

"We're just going to do our best to help our kids out and our staff," Grusecki said.

He said all of the teachers and staff met together after the students had gone home.

"It got pretty emotional with the adults. They need a lot of support right now," he said. "We could see it in their faces. It was difficult for all of us."

When asked about how a gun got into the school, Grusecki said there are no metal detectors in the building. He said school officials will review and look into what they can do in the future.

Director of Public Safety Thomas Coombs said investigators are still looking into who owned the gun. He couldn't answer whether any charges would be filed.

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in another article, it said the boy left a note, but i can't seem to find it. i don't think they've released it to the public. they said he was rather popular, but i don't think that'd stop bullies. i can't say for sure if it WAS bullying, but that's uaually the case. whether this was or wasn't, it's exactly what i've been saying for years now.

for those of you who think it's FUN to pick on other kids for ANY reason, YOU are the murderer. kids kill themselves because they feel unloved and weak, but they're WAY stronger than you fuckers are! they have to deal with YOUR shit because YOU don't know how to solve your problems!! STOP IT! does it make you feel good when a kid commits suicide? in my opinion, suicide is worse than homicide because feeling suicidal is the most terrible feeling one could feel! i've been there! i'm STILL there on occasions unfortunately! you feel worthless, that everyone just wants you gone! and for what? being a good student? wearing glasses? liking a certain band? wearing a certain style of clothing? how about... BEING THEMSELVES? we all bleed red, you heartless, insignificant people! what drives you? what makes you do it? and what if that kid, instead of killing themselves, becomes a murderer? homicide, again, is pretty much not as serious as suicide, but it is STILL VERY serious! if your victim becomes a killer, who's at the top of their list? YOU!! and they're smarter than you think! your victims are INTELLIGENT! remember that! just because YOU have problems, doesn't mean you can't make innocent people feel like shit! if you're a bully, you need to think about your actions and get your life together, cause someday, that victim's either gonna kill themselves, kill you, or become YOUR BOSS. frankly, that'd show you. you working for the kid you tortured in school. then YOU'D be the one who feels like a victim, huh? well, i say, if you bully people, you deserve the hate and the torture you put them through. so maybe take a moment to reflect on the damage you've done, and realize you made a horrible mistake.

now, i'd like to think that my watchers who are reading this are not bullies. this journal isn't addressing you guys specifically, but bullies in general, whether they're here on deviant art or not. if you're a victim, you know how it feels. i can't tell you how many reitannites have reached out to me for help. for privacy reasons, i will not reveal any names, but there's a LOT. they tell me they feel like no one loves them, and that no one would be sad to see them go. they hurt themselves because of the emotional and sometimes physical pain! but it's not true, they DO have people who love them! but even if you have 2 people out of 50 that hurt you, , and that remaining 48 tell you those 2 are wrong, the torture eats at you, especially if you already have minds that are chemically wired differently than others. manic depression, borderline personality disorder, clinic depression, schizophrenia, multiple personality disorder, and (believe it or not) even autism, which is pretty different from the previously named disorders... suicidal thoughts. almost all the time. feeling of worthlessness, betrayal, hate, hopelessness, depression... would you wish these feelings on anyone? are you really that hateful? victims, you know what i'm talking about. you know how it feels. but, as hard as it is, if we stand up for ourselves (verbally, not physically), then we'd make a difference. fighting is not the answer, but we must show the imiciles who torture us that we are stronger than them, cause we are. we HAVE TO TAKE IT! NOT THEM! and most of us already have trouble at home! who wants to be afraid to go to school AND go home? i was when i was young. almost all my life, i was afraid. but where could i go?

to any of you who are vicitms, listen to me, and BELIEVE me. i am no better than all of you. and you're no better than anyone else. we aren't more powerful than eachother, but we are strong. so if i'm still alive, if i managed to finally find a happy life, why can't you? you need to believe that if others can do it, so can you. YOU'RE NOT WEAK. you're strong as hell! everyday you fight your demons while our predators run from theirs. LOVE yourself and know that there are many people sad to see you go. FIGHT emotionally. it's extremely difficult, i know. but look at our world. it's going to shit. we don't want our children growing up here.

if you're someone who neither bullies or gets bullied, if you see someone getting pushed around, PLEASE help them. if someone stands up for us, we gain the confidence, and we get it in our minds, FINALLY, that people care. and for bullies out there, maybe if you just STOP and see the real person your torturing, you may find that you have a lot in common... and you could make a new friend. isn't having friends a much more fullfilling feeling than having enemies? i think so.

it takes just as much energy to love as it does to hate. but which one makes you feel better? we can change our world. just take a deep breath and find what you really want.

and i lend my strength to all who goes through this. no matter how long the storm lasts, there's always a rainbow waiting for you.

NEVER GIVE UP.

sorry if this was extremely harsh. i know none of you guys would hurt someone like this. but i want to read out to you and let you know that YOU ARE LOVED. people want you to live. and the harder you work at life, the more happy you will be once you finally see your rainbow. please never forget what i have said today. if you wish, pass this on to others you know need strength... or to those who need to learn not to hate.