Just a Little Update

lol, in the back of my head, i had something eating at me. ever since that fiasco with those girls getting all hatey and crap, there was just this... thing. one of the girls was a deviant named metros2soul, and i was like, "where have i heard that name before...?" and just tonight, out of curiosity, i went into my ZADR folder where i save my favorite pictures i find on the internet, and there i see many pictures done by metros2soul, and i felt sad. it's because her work is amazing, and the fact that i loved so much of it made me... well... feel disappointed. as artists, we should respect eachother, and to think that such a silly thing happened, (i would use the phrase "making a mountain out of a molehill") and respect was lost on one side. but, i suppose she never stopped to think that maybe she was jumping the gun a bit. well, i still love her work, and i still have her pictures in my folder. some of them are set to cycle through my desktops. why would i give up looking at good artowrk just because the artist decided to think i was a bad person? it's just like listening to songs that remind me of people i've lost. if they're good songs, why should i stop listening to them? sure, they bring up horrible memories, but i can't deny i love the song. i dunno, i just felt i should express my respect for her art, even if my respect for her has fallen. we live in this world, and we can't change how things are. people assume stuff, people misunderstand others, and people don't stop to think about what might actually be going on with other people. people believe other people, and people twist words around. people do all they can to make another person miserable, putting all their energy into revenge. god, if i could get my revenge on all the kids who bullied me in school, i would. but it wouldn't change what they did. then again... those kids actually WERE bad people. woah woah woah, stop ranting, rei. baaaad habit, expecially at 12 in the morning and my meds have worn off completely. the safest thing for me to do would be go to sleep just to make sure i didn't give my brain time to decided what it wants to do with me tonight. in other words, what "annatier" wants to do with me. that's the simplest way to describe it, is with anna, since she's the metaphor. anyhooziwatsit...

ALRIGHT! i want those of you who know... TELL MEH! what other slender games are there that i haven't played???? i need to do clausterphobia, 7th street... and now someone told me there's one called PRISON??? i can't keep up!!

also, playing SCP containment breach is less like a horror game now, and more like... research. i've learned quite a lot, considering i've only played it like 4 or 5 times. you can see my experience growing through my videos. i've discovered what SCP-079 does with the doors, and how it both hinders and helps my progress. i rewatch these videos with a few questions in mind; how can i get passed 173 and NOT fall through the map? why does 173 sometimes not appear in the lockroom? how can i get passed 106 in the maintenence tunnel so i can safely take the elevator he's guarding? where does the elevator take me? how do i successfully escape 106's pocket dimension? and where the fuck did 106 take me with those weird pillars? well, these are all things i'm gonna have to experiment with tomorrow.... i SHOULD be working on PWF, but my curiosity is too great. if i can just figure these things out, i might be satisfied. page 22 is almost all the way sketched out. so, i figured i should try to get passed 173 in the tunnel he appears in instead of coaxing him out. i have eyedrops now, so those could come in handy. hopefully i won't fall through the map if i do it that way. i also have a theory about the lockroom. i think that sometimes, when i open the door, he goes through the door on the other side. also, 079 has a habit of opening the lockroom, but 173's never come out on my side as a result. so i believe there IS a period in time when 173 is NOT in the lockroom. i figured this out by watching my most recent video. he ended up being behind an open door on the other side, but for whatever reason, he didn't attack when i blinked until i realized he was there and shut the door so i could prepare myself for an escape. if this theory is correct, it will VERY much increase my chances of successfully passing through the lockroom. as for 106... well, he's always in the maintenence tunnel. there's a door that's locked that he appears either in front of or behind, depending which door you actually encounter. 079 will open these doors for you after a few seconds, but it's always been a few seconds too late for me. my plan is to wait until 079 opens the door, somehow circle around 106 and try to take the elevator while he's relatively far behind me. maybe if the elevator has gone up, he can't go through the door. where does it lead? i THINK it leads to his containment chamber, that's why he stops me from going. but i've been there already, HE actually took me there. problem was, i didn't have a high clearence key card to get out. as for the pocket dimension, i have seen one person escape, and they totally did it by accident. since 106 keeps taking me to the pillar, i've noticed tiny steps leading downward. these will lead to a little bridge and to a well that'll take me to the hallways of the dimesnion again. if i keep going through the dimension and somehow keeping away from 106, i could possibly escape and take the elevator, assuming my "circle around him" plan doesn't work. of course, i'm not prepared for what awaits me on either side, whether i get passed 173 OR 106. though, my success rate will be greater if i continue to fall into "guy mode" when i play.

okay, page 22. it's looking pretty good. of course, i had to finish 's contest prize, otherwise i was never gonna do it due to procrastination. but i have one more frame to sketch before i start inking. when the page is finally done, i'll attempt to figure out how many more pages this chapter has left.

remember, i still have stuff for sale in my etsy and my spreadshirt shop. i will add bottle cap charms soon.

haven't subscribed to my youtube channel yet? WELL WHATCHA WAITIN FOR?? if you don't subscribe, i'll assume you're an ardvark that's in league with keith! KEEEEITH!!!! remember guys, rei's love gauge still needs a fillin!

also, for those of you who didn't get to see THE picture... my photobucket name is kitkitsnacks. so if you want to see THE picture, you'll need to go there. i hope you know what i mean by THE picture.

i will be in LA this saturday and sunday. i'll take PWF with me in case i get down time to work on it. it's yaoi-con bitches! who's gonna be there? i'm pretty sure i'm gonna be a gothic version of miku, and my regular gumi, so if you're there, watch out for those. gothic miku will have her pigtails in braids. i know a lot of you are underagies, and a lot of you aren't in socal, but hey! ya neva kno!!!

well, i'm sleepy, and i can't remember what else i needed to tell you. i'll probably remember when i lay down, and then i'll be like, "i'll add it tomorrow," and then tomorrow will come and i will have forgotton what it was. that's when i thank "annatier" for her sudden urge to "have me all to herself" when i was 18. i wonder if i'll ever actually recover from that. but really, maybe not all of us are meant to keep our memory?

now i leave you with this thought... every living creature on earth dies alone... so if you die alone, why would you want to spend the remainder of your life alone? DON'T GIVE UP ON LOVE, it will find you when it's ready.