i don't know why, but i gotta share it

i had THE strangest dream last night. like, slightly disturbing, but it wasn't considered a nightmare. and it was SO detailed, and it's all sticking in my mind, which is not very normal for most of my dreams. note that this dream has some pretty fucked up stuff, so be careful when reading, especially for underagies.

alright, so it started out that mike and i were in a house having like a small get together with a lot of friends or something. all of a sudden, a random group of people burst in and started shooting and stabbing everyone. there was chaos and we were all running around to hide. by the time most people were dead, there were four of us left, mike, me, some girl, and some guy. i actually remember the guy was chad and the girl was called "dillona," like fionna, but... dillona? wtf, brain? anyway, all was quiet, and chad found a bat just in case they were still out there. the atmosphere was sort of that like daytime in silent hill, foggy, grey, but bright.

cahd said "i think they're gone," but as soon as we stepped out from our hiding spot, chad and dillona were shot dead. mike and i felt cornered, and two of the gang were smiling at us as the rest filed out of the house. one guy said, "we'll let you live because you guys look like you've got a good bonding." and the two left. the house was empty, and there wasn't even any furniture. it was just foggy, quiet, and lonely. we were scared, looking at the bodies. eventually, the two of us took the time to drag the bodies outside.

at some point, i tried to call someone (i don't remember who), but my cell cut off, and the next thing i knew, the person i called was found dead. it seemed that we couldn't have any contact with anyone, or else they'd be killed. even when our friend justin snuck in to try and see us, he was tracked down as soon as he left by a large, armored truck. justin was trying to drive away, and this truck was recklessly speeding after him, causing many cars to spin out, hit each other, and explode. even two planes crashed into each other some how. but they didn't care about the casualties. they finally crashed into justin's car, which completely flipped, and exploding. i dunno how we found out about this, but it was horrifying. i didn't dare contact sempai, for i knew they'd go after her.

then, a girl came to see us, and we told her they're ALWAYS watching us. i guess i was really attatched to her, and i THINK her name was like dandy or dally or something like that. When a few people in the gang burst in, I hugged her and pleaded to let her live, so they said they'd spare her. but there was one woman in the gang who had come in the back entrance and didn't know dandy/dally was allowed to live. i was afraid, not sure where the woman would come from, and i was shouting, "don't kill her! they said she's allowed to live! you can ask them yourself! don't kill her!" we spotted the woman, and she gave a nod, leaving.

okay, this is where i woke up coughing cause i'm still sick. so i woke up, attempted to grab my sore throat spray, knocked over an empty vitamin water bottle, sprayed my throat, and went back to sleep. the dream continued fully.

except this time, i wasn't me, and mike wasn't there. the house was cleaned up and nice, and there were a few people that were part of the gang that were allowed to live with us. i was a girl with short, deep magenta hair, and i had a twin sister with purple hair. i don't remember our names. we were living with two older women, heavy set, and also twins. i think they were our aunts, and they were responsible for keeping us in the house and killing anyone who we try to contact or tries to contact us. only members of the game could come in.

our aunts went out for some groceries, and my twin and i discussed killing them to escape, but we weren't very hopeful. we were talking about somehow chopping them in half, but they came home and suspiciously asked what we were doing. (this is where it gets weird, so please don't judge me.) we told them that we had been masturbating. o_o uh, i don't know why the fuck that happened, but... after that we gave up. i still didn't want to be there, but my twin fully accepted our imprisonment, and she herself was able to join the gang. she always tried convincing me to, but i refused. (note, it's not like we were being tortured. the house was nice, but we weren't allowed to leave.) dandy/dally still existed, and the gang was considering killing her. my twin didn't care, but i did. i actually said, "i'll chop off my right leg if you let her live." sooooooo....... they said okay. for some reason, i didn't have a problem with this, but someone else was going to take my leg off. as i was laying on an operating table, i said, "are you going to at least put me to sleep?" and the dude dressed like a doctor said, "of course."

next thing i knew, i was the other twin, and who was previously me came in, walking with her left leg and a crutch. "does it hurt?" i asked, and she said, "not anymore. it just takes a little bit more energy to walk." and she sat in a chair. for SOME REASON, dandy/dally made her a home made thong out of a strip of fabric, a piece of poped balloon, and a rubber string. WTF! and apparently she made it for my crippled twin as a "glad you're well" present, which we actually thought was very funny, as dandy/dally meant it as a gag gift.

my twin grew used to life with no leg, and eventually was able to build a fake one that looked extremely real and functioned EXTREMELY well. but her attitude started to change, and as she changed, so did i. apparently we still had our father, and he was part of the gang and was almost never home. and again, please excuse how disturbing this dream is getting... my twin like... became physically attracted to our FATHER, who was actually really attractive, but didn't look like my real dad (thank god). aaaaaaaaand..... they started sleeping with each other. i tried to ignore it as best i could, but i was weirded out, and a little jealous because he was no longer paying attention to me because SHE was the cute one. i became depressed and never did anything with the gang anymore. dandy/dally was killed by our father at some point, but my twin was SO obsessed with having sex with him, she didn't give a DAMN that she had sacrifieced her leg to keep her alive. i cared a little, but i was getting really frustrated with the situation between my twin and our father.

here we go, it's even weirder. (how can it get weirder than insest, reitanna?) well, ominous voice from nowhere, i suddenly found myself face to face with a big glob that actually resembled a larger, paler version of the pokemon solosis, except not very cute. its liquid type substance covering it was greyish blue and was rippling. it said to me, "it's wrong and you need to stop it. if you don't stop it, the chain of events might lead to your own death." i asked, "what can i do?" and the thing said, "you need to kill your father and the rest of the gang." and he turned me into a creature sort of like him, and there were five others that had once been human. however, we were unstable and begame jiggly skeletons doused in the weird grey goop. we were mad that we were like this, expecting to be powerful beings. the thing said, "woops," and disappeared.

however, we found out that we weren't so useless. we could become invisible and had really cool powers. and in turn, i was each person, seeing things from their point of view. a younger one slipped into a car of one of the gang members and attempted to strangle him, but i wasn't invisible and was somehow able to grab me and stab me to death. and while he was killing me, i was, for some reason, holding onto a cat's tail, and the cat tried getting away from me, and i pulled the tail off. thinking about it now, THAT makes me want to vomit. then i was dead.

next, i was the older male of the group, and i went into a diner to go after a member who was actually previously my friend. i was invisible, sitting under the table and speaking menacingly to him, threatening him. he was scared, and flipped the table, recognizing my voice and shooting a submachine gun in the direction my voice was coming from. i was maimed but got away.

i was the older woman of the group, and i don't remember what i did, but i ended up dying as her, too.

then i was the little girl, about 6, of the group, and i had a baby sister, who i was "training" or something. it seemed she was the most powerful of us all, taking out the dummies i set up for her. however, we both attempted to attack a group, and after a very violent fight, we too were slaughtered.

i as myself (the twin) had been able to kill a few of them without too much damage. i met up with the older man who had got away, and we were discussing what to do next, but he was suddenly shot to death by my father. somehow i turned back into a human, and he was surprised, for he hadn't recognized me as a goo covered skeleton. i started crying and told him that his relationship with my twin sister was wrong, and that he was neglecting me. i told him he said she was the cute one, even though we were identical.

he must've misunderstood, cause he suggested breaking it off with my twin and being with me instead. i didn't have a chance to object as he led me back home. the creature was gone, our twin aunts were like... watching TV or something, and my twin sister became absolutely FURIOUS. i tried to tell her it wasn't what i intended, and when my father heard this, he went crazy too. he took a chainsaw, slaughtered our aunts, then my twin. i ran behind a door that was made of strong wood, locking it. however, i knew it wouldn't stand a chainsaw for long. i managed to find a huge blanket and some weird, thick liquid.

the chainsaw started breaking through the door, (and i should mention my father didn't look REMOTELY attractive anymore). i rolled the blanket up in a ball and held it against the spot the chainsaw was tearing through, and the engine struggled as it also went through the blanket. i poured the liquid onto the blade, and jumped back as an electrical shock surged through the chainsaw. i heard my father screaming bloody murder, and then a loud THUMP as he fell to the floor. i opened the door, crying as i looked at his charred remains. however, after a few seconds, he weakly stood to his feet, withdrawing a knife and brandishing it at me.

then i was HIM. i slashed and killed the girl i had just been, and started laughing. then i sliced both my palms, then my throat. after this, i was outside, flyinf into the sky and above trees. i was letting the blood from my hands drip onto leaves, fences, and anywhere else. and for some reason, i was now narrating.

"people wonder how things came to be," i said, almost in a calm, euphoric tone. "my blood will touch the land, the trees, and things will exist. fruit, life, everything. i'm in control of all they see." i sit on a large branch, looking at the blue sky, looking beautiful with white fluffy clouds. "the sky has a weird blue color," i continued to myself. "and those things floating in it are bugging me. i prefer an orange-ish pink color..." i waved my hand across the sky, and it began turning into a sunset, as if i was painting over a picture in photoshop. "darker, darker," i said, and there was suddenly pur black smokey creatures blocking out the sky like thick black clouds. at first glance, they'd look like clouds. "too dark," i said, waving my hand in a "shooing" fashion. "i SAID, too dark." i hand to wave away some of the creatures, who turned into solid, shadowy people, stepping off a cliff that randomely appeared, falling to their deaths. "that's better."

but the sunset turned to night, and i came down from the tree, standing at the edge of the cliff. there were tons of other people ranging from kids to elders. they were talking as if it was a simple gathering, and calmly stepping off the cliff into nothing. the void looked foggy and a strange beige color, much lighter than the sky. it was REALLY far down, and i don't think there was groud at all. i don't remember saying anything, but i looked around at everyone, then stepped off the cliff.

then i was me, and i felt sick, pulling myself away from my 2DS. apparently i had been playing a game, and a couple younger kids were watching me. "so, what did you think?" said a little girl. (in real life, i would've LOVED a game like that, but apparently my dream self did not.) "that was awesome," i replied, but i was shakey. "i'm gonna take a break though..." i set down the game and went to my room. it was actually my old room from when i lived in alpine, and it was a MESS. i had way more stuff than i should've, and could barely walk. my rats were out of their cage, which was significantly smaller, and there was a HUGE light brown rat just sitting on my bed. it looked wild, not domestic, and i was afraid that it'd attack me or my pet rats. however, it didn't seem violent, and i picked it up. it was tame and kissed my face like ezio and rem do, so i kept him. he was really friendly with ezio and rem, and he seemed to be like the leader, but one of those kind of fat, slow moving types. he was never stern against the other two, but actually seemed to be teaching them stuff. i named him boss.

i was nervous that the cage was too small for the three of the, especially since boss was so big, so i put them in the cage and left the room to find a bigger one. now the rest of the house was messy, like DISGUSTING, like shmoo's bedroom was. there was rotting food, wrappers, chip bags, clothes, what looked like RABBIT droppings (shmoo didn't have a rabbit, so that was unrelated), and loads of other stuff. i suggested to the kids that we should clean the house and then clean my room, so we did. but when we were gonna enter my room, boss ran out, followed by ezio, then rem. they just contently climbed onto furniture, chilling, like they did it every day. (that's actually how rem and ezio act when i let them out and they nonchalantly hop onto the couch next to their cage.)

so i picked them up and had to bring them back in. it was hard to clean while they kept trying to escape, so my room never did get clean. oh fuck, i'm having trouble recalling what happened next... oh wait, i think i was younger, and i was in a classroom. i was quiet, shy, and sitting in a desk near the back, which usually happened cause my last name starts with R. for SOME reason, the teacher was talking about sailor moon. >_<

god, that's all i remember, though i know there was a teensy bit more. i think i don't remember cause i had woken up soon after. mike wakes me up by putting the rats on my bed, and they lick my face and run around, and they help wake me up more easily. sometimes i'll just scoop them under my blanket and they snuggle in the crook of my arm, licking my hand.

anyway... yea. holy shit. i commend you if you read this whole thing. i know i have sensual dreams because of repressed sexual feelings, especially when i'm on the rag, but DUDE, insest? what the fuck! i've never had a dream like that. at least it wasn't the real me or my real dad. god but that was still fucked up. i could definitely do without insest in a video game, but everything else would've been awesome. i wish we could record our dreams and convert them into video. if we all remembered our dreams to every last detail, we wouldn't have shitty movies and games. "the last of us" was probably the last, most recent GOOD horror game in a long time. and "carrie," though a remake, looks really good.

i have a hard time finding scary movies nowadays. even some asian movies! i watched "sadako," which is like a modern sequal to "ringu," and it. was. STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPEEEEEEEEEEEED. like, it was nearly as stupid as "chakushin ari 3." at least the deaths in that one were funny, but in "sadako," the only cool thing was the movement of the weird sadako creatures! but whatevs... "raisen" sucked too, and that's why they made "ringu 2." but "ringu 0" was the best. i highly reccommend it, it is CA-REEPY! loooooooooooooved it! it also made me cry at one sappy, lovey dovey part. XD but the last amazing horror film i saw was "mama." great story, deeply detailed, LOTS of jump scares, and the saddest ending to a movie i have EVER seen. it beats titanic by a LONG shot.

i should be a movie critic..... XD anyway, trying to get over this damn cold. hopefully i'll have something new up. thanks for reading this if you did! check ya later alligators and crocodiles!