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i've been waiting all this time, and pip finally visited my dreams last night. it was brief, but it was good to see him. he was young and nice and fluffy, and it happened like it always does when i see my pets; suddenly finding out they're alive. what happened was pip had been burried, and later, he just showed up in my room, which wasn't my room. it was shmoo's room from when i was her roommate. he crawled out from under a pile of clothes, and i flip out, screaming that he was alive. i grabbed him and loved his fuzzy little form, then put him in kosho ni's cage. for some reason, kosho wasn't there, even though he had been alive when we lived in that room. i told my grandma that pip was alive, and she looked in the backyard to see a small hole tunneling out from his grave. but when i found him, he was clean, soft fur, and as energetic as ever. i was so happy to see him, and i'm very glad he showed up. then, when he left, the dream turned into a very short nightmare that had me waking up screaming.

 

i've been doing that a lot. for some reason, my nightmares are so severe, they almost turned into night terrors. i've never woke up screaming from nightmares when i was younger, but it's different now. the other night, i kicked something off the table (i'm sleeping in the living room because the bedroom's too damn hot) because in my dream, i was in a bag and was being dragged away by some unknown guy. i was kicking and screaming, and i kicked out in real life.

 

the night before that, however, my nightmare turned into me having the upper hand, and i woke up laughing maniacally. it's so strange that this is happening.

 

i think "annatier" is taking over my head while unconscious, making me have attacks in my dreams. most of my nightmares involve falling attacks, but that one where i was laughing was a manic episode, which i don't get as often anymore. that's normal for bipolars though, are manic episodes are few and far between, and most of the time they're hypomanic. that's the case for bipolar I anyway, which i am.

 

*sigh* anyhoo, changing the subject... mike and i just finished the first season of gravity falls, and i never thought i'd say this, but... that show beats adventure time and regular show. those two cartoons get away with a LOT, but gravity falls got away with SO MUCH for a fraggin DISNEY SHOW! and the last episode confirmed it. wanna know why? there was blood. REAL BLOOD. dipper's nose was bleeding. my jaw had dropped, just like when mordecai said "pissed" in regular show. i FLIPPED out. i was like "THERE'S BLOOD ON A CHILDREN'S SHOW! ON A DISNEY SHOW!!" i think it's some secret disney channel that's not really disney and it's some kind of conspiracy! lol jk. but seriously, even with all the violence, deaths, head explosions, and impalments on regular show, it has yet to show blood. real blood. and just that tiny bit from dipper's nose sold it, just completely sold it. disney, you finally know what you're doing. maybe you realized that all your disney stars, save for raven simone, left disney to become scumbags... *coughmileycyruscough* you've made up for it.

 

fortunately, gravity falls has been renewed. UNfortunately, it won't be back until late 2014. way to keep us at the edge of our seat guys!! oh! and in the ending segment of the last episode of the first season, it showed a page of the journal splattered with blood. i'm loving this. i'm loving this. did i mention i'm loving this? finally cartoons are getting good again. they're finally living up to the shows i grew up with. i am proud of them. none of this johnny test and their sad excuse for MAD. my 90's kids, do you remember what MAD really was? yea, that show was NOT for kids. and they ruined it!

 

nickelodeon, you're way behind. you're behind DISNEY. you're lucky you've still got spongebob. i'd say the only thing saving your ass is legend of korra. but seriously... kung fu panda? and you're STILL airing penguins of madagascar? and get rid of your stupid live action sitcoms. you used to have gameshows, and they were AWESOME! but you're going down. cartoon network unfortunately is not about "cartoon cartoons!" anymore. they have live action stuff now too. man, what a disappointment. but they got regular show and adventure time, and i even liked chowder when it was on. do you remember cartoon cartoon fridays? man, you younger peeps missed out. i'd go back in time JUST to watch old school cartoon network. i remember watching the shows while eating blue raspberry applesauce and then seeing the lineup on a blue screen between shows. *sigh* those were the days...

 

anyway, got into a rant that won't make a hellova difference.

 

remember, i still have fanmail i will open this saturday, and i still gotta draw the contest prizes. you will get them, guys, i just can't promise when. this isn't really an excuse, but i've been really excited about these side things i've been doing. i gotta draw the next page of PWF too, cause i'm excited about doing it in inkscape, but i'm still too drunk on shadows and lost in light. wait, i meant, i'm still too attached to the little things. (did anyone get that reference? XD)

 

food stamps are really helping me. still waiting on LIHP, but mike and i have given up on unemployment. i thought for sure i was gonna get it. i mean, i quit my job because of a hostile work environment. i thought i DID get it when they had me fill out paperwork showing i applied for jobs. they even denied my appeal. we're just like *throws hands in air* fuck it. we'll survive. the fact that i don't have to starve helps, and if i get my LIHP back to pay for my meds, i'll be good to go like edgar allen poe.

 

i hopefully will be adding some stuff to my etsy. who would honestly, IF you had the money, buy my paintings? honestly? and who would buy my cyborg doll even though her lights don't work anymore?

 

alright, gotta get back to work now. see you soon!

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popkool Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
PEOPLE SHOULD GET THERE FREAKING HEADS STRAIGHT! IF THEY SHOW ANOTHERE DROP OF BLOOD ON A CHILDRENS CARTOON I'M GONNA FLIP OUT *punches cora in rabbit form in the face*
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Adrainea9876 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Student General Artist
I've been having really vivid, weird (sometimes nightmarish) dreams as well recently and they've left me very confused....
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Starflight707 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013
I have to catch up on gravity falls!
I watched every episode until I got shipped off on this yellow bus to a prison named... school.

I'm so so so glad that you finally got to say goodbye to Pip ;u; but I'm really sorry it turned into a nightmare....
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i'm sure he'll be back too. my animals always visit me more than once, sometimes at the same time
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Starflight707 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013
Oh wow, that's pretty cool!
Dreams are just so awesome
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TheLPSDragon Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Yay! You took my suggestion!!! I told you it was great!!! I wonder what happens next?!
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i know, that was THE most cliff hangery cliff hanger in the history of cliff hangers!
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TheLPSDragon Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
IKR!!!! I bet it's his twin stuck in another dimension
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
whatever it is, i hope this doesn't mean stan is evil
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TheLPSDragon Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Stan's a good guy, I was at the reddit thing with Alex Hirsch, so we know Stan's a good guy. What do you think the portal leads to?
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i have a theory. remember when bill told gideon he had to help him with something in exchange for getting the code to the safe from stan's memory? well, we never found out what that was. and bill already knew the pines, especially stan. i think the portal leads to the dimension where bill is, and he wants to stop his plan, whatever it is... i dunno, just a hunch
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TheLPSDragon Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Oh my Glob that's the best theory I've heard.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i hope i'm right! mike was the one who guessed stan had the first book
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ChaosSolEternal Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Ever had sleep paralysis? I suffer from it every so often which can lead to hallucinations. Mine usually involve a demon trying to posses me. I had a series of attacks once that led me to fear falling asleep. I don't often dream of my pets that passed but my grandma sometimes has a reoccurring role...

Yay! Glad you like Gravity Falls! It really is a well made show. Subway has these GF kids bags and I actually collected them all, lol. It's been the first time in a long time that I've loved a show that much.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
no, i don't. i used to be a light sleeper but now i'm a heavy sleeper. it started when i had to give up caffeine, but the night terrors started like a few months ago.
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ChaosSolEternal Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I've noticed I'm a pretty heavy sleeper since I sleep through storms and sirens which wouldn't be a good thing in emergencies. I wish you luck with the night terrors. It's really too easy for sleep to be disturbed. I didn't use to have a problem but with the more anxiety I have the worse my sleep is so I really don't look forward to it.
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varletlegion Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Student General Artist

I'm glad you got to see Pip again, even if it was a 'goodbye'. And I'm really sorry about the nightmares.

I've been getting them too lately...

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gaaralover247 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Marvelous that Pip can to see you at last. :D I can't seem to get into gravity falls.... idk I have only seen a couple episodes though. Also, I would totally buy stuff when I get money, probably around Christmas when I get that money. :P But I totally would lol I love you work Rei.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
have you seen them in order? they have continuity
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gaaralover247 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
That might be it. lol I have only seen here and there, maybe ill have to watch them online in order then.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yea, you gotta, then it makes more sense
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gaaralover247 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Kay, lol cuz I watched one and I was just like uhh wtf am I looking at lol. maybe I will do that tomorrow. :3
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yup. good luck, i hope you like it :3
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thomasbaron06 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013

that's good about pip,

glad you got to see him again =),

 

that sucks about the nightmare though,

I've woken up screaming from nightmares before myself =(,

 

haven't seen Gravity Falls though,

wow, I haven't watched Disney Channel in ages,

but yea, I think miley cyrus pretty much ruined her fanbase,

lol did you see the smith family's faces when they saw that!? lol :laughing:,

 

cartoon network just isn't what it used to be anymore,

I miss all the old classic shows that I grew up with on their,

Johnny Bravo, Courage The Cowardly Dog, Cow and Chicken etc.,

 

nickelodeon used to have some of the most awesome shows around,

who still remembers Legends of the Hidden Temple? I DO! :D,

*sigh* man, Cartoon Cartoon Fridays was the best EVER!,

take me back in time with you! lol,

 

yay fanmail! :iconyay:,

 

congrats again on the food stamps,

good to know you're not starving anymore =),

that unemployment stuff is complete bullshit,

I think the government just likes jerking people around,

and it was the same way with disability,  they just don't give a shit about the people they're supposed to be helping,

sometimes I can't help but think the only thing they really give two shits about at all is their frackin' paycheck and they don't do anything to deserve it except sit on their asses and treat people like they're nothing but garbage =(,

 

always looking forward to new stuff on your etsy,

i would so totally buy one of your paintings! :love:,

 

see you soon, rei-rei! :hug:

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soulreaper35 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013
I know how you feel, cartoons on nick, cartoon network and disney suck ass, spongebob, regular show, adventure time are saving tv for kids, I haven't seen legend of korra or Gravity Falls, but I gave up on Disney channel when I was like 11 when Kim Possible had its series finale. when you mentioned cartoon cartoons, that brought me back to Ed Edd n Eddy, PowerPuff Girls and all the 90's shows. The only thing nicktoons network did that was good was playing the shows from nick that are no longer showed, but then sucked ass when they took them down. I'm sorry to hear about Pip and how dreams can mess with people and how jobs are, my sister couldn't get hired when she applied for about 3 jobs while still in high school. TV makes me pissed now!! But the funny thing is that I saw a clip of MAD that showed basically that Cartoon Network knows that it sucks when it did a parody of Once Upon a Time when someone was gathering all the cartoon characters of tv shows that were good.CURSE YOU! 
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ZIMSULTIMATELUVA Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I would certainly buy your paintings, but I'm 13 and broke, plus I keep spending my money on toys for me to customize. And...Gravity Falls? YUS C:
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dragonmastrcrashrokz Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013   Artist
That's awesome! ^^ I wish I had dreams about my old pets... I miss all of my dearly departed doggies and kitties :(

As for the every disney star leaving disney and becoming a scumbag, not necessarily... I mean, Demi Lovato's actually pretty cool. coming back from depression and bulimia, and cutting, and not making a huge scene all over the damn place is pretty cool. I have a lot of respect for her. and I did before because I love her voice :)
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i dunno, i didn't like her even when she was on disney. but man, miley cyrus went down the hole QUICK. and poor lindsey lohan, i loved her. and she just... *mimics bomb falling and exploding* just like that
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GothicSoulIzzy Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
^.^ Yay! Before Jasmine left me, alsmot everynight, I'd ask her to come to me in a dream. And she did the day she died :) I'm glad you had a dream about Pip! ^.^Meow :3 :happybounce: Hug 
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i kept asking pip to visit me. i'm so glad he did, i really miss him
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GothicSoulIzzy Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Aww, I bet you do. I'm glad he did too ^.^ Man, it sucks loseing BPF's. 'BPF: Best Pet Friend'
He will always be in your heart :), And you'll see him when it's your time. That's what I believe ^.^' I hope to see my Jazzy, again.
Hope you feel better.
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks :3 i got my rats though, so they're my bestest BPFs XD
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GothicSoulIzzy Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
^.^
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Kbsgirlz Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I know!! And in Tangled one of the good guys got stabbed! It is a conspiracy!!!! TRUST NOBODY!!!!!!!
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InvaderMIA02 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
yay! Im glad you like gravity falls rei! I cant wait for the next season!
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
me too! the way it ended, i was like "WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT???"
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InvaderMIA02 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
yeah XD
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NekoTokyo Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Student General Artist
Gravity Falls is basically my fave Disney Show. That's it. The other shows suck. That one show is the best to me! Mable ;u;~~~~
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i love mabel, and what completes her is her voice actor, who also voice my favorite character in bob's burgers, louis
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NekoTokyo Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Student General Artist
Her voice actor also Voices one of Jake's kids in Adventure Time. I squealed some knowing that cx But Mable is like.. A role model to me in a way. She's happy about anything like I am! :'D!
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yea, jake jr. she also had a role in one american dad episode and two archer episodes. her voice is just so unique
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NekoTokyo Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Student General Artist
Oh cool c: And I love her voice. It just totally suits Mable's character thou! And her sweaters! >u<~
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i love her pajamas with the floppy disk on it. and is it just me, or does she look totally weird when NOT in a sweater?
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NekoTokyo Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Student General Artist
Oh my god yes! And no you're not the only one. SHE NEEDS THE SWEATERS! O^O
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Reitanna-Seishin Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
she's adorable :3
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ULTRADJ4EVER Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013
Lately I have dreams of cartoons for some reason and some nightmares that I can't remember now
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