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Honesty is a Crime

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Honesty is a crime.
Tell people you're sad,
You're crying out for attention.
Tell people you're angry,
You're a threat to others.
You say you're not afraid of death,
You think you're the shit.

Honesty is a crime.
If you have beliefs,
You're out of your mind.
If you love gore,
You're a sociopath.
If you have a disorder,
Everyone should pity you.

Honesty is a crime.
It's not okay to be sad.
It's unacceptable to be angry.
It's impossible to not fear death.
You can't show emotion
Because you're craving sympathy.
Give me attention,
For I am human,
And I am so very special.
I am SICK and TIRED of people treating honesty like a joke! people who don't know me assume I'm lying if I say something unorthodox, or share certain beliefs. I'm SORRY for being honest, but it's my code of honor, my way of life. hell, this description isn't okay, isn't it? or this deviation, right? I'm out of line. well you know what, I'm not going to censor myself, and I am not going to give up my honesty. you have NO IDEA what I've done to people I discovered were lying to me. THAT is unacceptable. I am SO tired of liars, of thieves, dishonest behavior.

I'm not saying there aren't times that lying is okay, say, when keep a friend's secret. and I admit I DO lie to myself often, otherwise when I lie to others, it's when someone ask me what's wrong, and I say "nothing." though I try not to do that anymore. I used to keep it to myself because I'm not allowed to show feelings, right? well now I tell people.

"how are you doing?" bad.

"are you okay?" not really.

"what's wrong?" [insert problem here.]

what's my problem? what the fuck is my problem? people who think it's impossible to feel genuine, to have honest motives, to NOT be craving attention or try to make people think I need sympathy. why do I share my feelings? because I need to get it out. I've spent most of my life bottling stuff up, and it had a terrible toll on me, so that's why I share. not for sympathy, not for pity, not for attention, but to GET IT OUT. however, it's also a learning experience for people who think like me. I've had many people tell me that I've given them strength, that I was an inspiration to them, and that I've shown them how to cope. I LOVE that, I love helping others if I can. and if that makes me "special," then go ahead and tell me I'm self centered. go ahead and tell me I want attention. go ahead and convince yourself that I'm just another internet liar. because you know what kind of attention I'm asking for? for people to let me know they're okay. I want your attention, I crave it, I feed off it. I want you to tell me that you're there, and that you're okay.

hate me for being honest, hate me for loving, hate me for caring. you know what attention you'll receive? none. so what if I'm not afraid of death, why should I fear something that is inevitable? I lie to myself too much to say I care if I die. death shouldn't be something to fear, because that's life, that's reality. and if we run away from reality, we're going to suffer hard when it hits.

in fact, I'm disabling comments to keep the trolls away, because I KNOW they'll make something out of this that it's not. I just wanna let you reitannites know that it's okay, and if we stand together, we can show the world that it's NOT a crime to be honest.
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